sterling silver ring brought to bending resting retired, porcelain vanity left behind forgotten - coat pocket that you borrowed from me. cloth patch half-stitched up to a pastel yellow hat i never wear you are catching up, step forward just to take a couple back can't say i'm doing much more living temporary guess it's kinda my thing while you are still hand crafting extremes see you passing through the place i live now, just hanging out i don't blame you dodging me, i probably came off pretty mean but since i missed you, here's what's new with me best i can do to keep things short and sweet bad habits keep colouring in outlines of my good ideas i'm still jumping sharks and smoking guns not much has changed if i'm being real not even sure what i'm mad about probably just taking it out on you guess i thought we were tripping up two feet in time and i miss you suppose we catch up on just how i've been explaining away each other's brand of escaping the same thing i got no room to call you out if nothing i do is working.

Is it worth it? I'm convinced All for the service But I'm all out of ways To get you back to my place And it's the way you play I can't follow And I'm all out of space No room to grow Don't sweat you'll do fine But I won't be there When the hard part's over and I think way too much about it But I just might be high and You get way too damn upset about shit While I'm just trying to move forward I can't lie about what's on my mind Is it too much for me to ask for A better way to leave Cause I'm not going through the hassle Just out of courtesy And I'll keep it to myself completely When I do something wrong I'll deal with the consequences When the high is gone I know how you're with money But I like wasting time Cause it gets Much higher in demand with no supply But I find It harder to stay focused on What you're saying And If I don't have the time will you get by? Cause it seems like you're bored And I'm all but entertaining Ignore the cons along the way Cause honestly as shitty as it sounds I'm willing And if you want to go then I'll wait Well it's good to know you weren't trying to stay Cause I'm out of words to ease the awkward But it couldn't be our fault if no one's there to admit it It's nothing too scary I hope you watch till the end

i'm being someone I like now i figured maybe i'd try something new out only problem is that you keep showing up and i am god damn sure it don't help at all it's for good reason that no one's kept in touch i honestly had already forgotten how tirelessly tiring all of this had become don't come out of the blue now that it's done satellite mediation, and who's fault they get hit and are sent spiraling down to your level? i am ever-ending work without your help please keep yourself to yourself you knew that this would happen about-face on your plan confrontation's daunting - yeah, believe me - i'm your man pitch your plan b thinking i don't quite know what the fuck matter of fact, please tell me what the point of all this was i'm being someone i like now and it's something i think you should try out you might end up enjoying yourself sick i know it sure as hell beats this just stop the operation the covert tactic schtick i'm doing fine, you should do fine and that should be it

Try not to leave out all the details Cause I don't seem to remember It won't take long till I bail Just fight the sleep Cause it takes time to see that I Can't outgrow my habits And I'm not sure when I'd see your perspective Or you'd end up Keep it to yourself Cause no one gives a shit about what you think I'm sure you'll find the help But I'm not quite qualified to fake it I couldn't tell you, when or why But thats not the issue I can't stand the way I feel when I try way too hard Just like the nails holding my cabinets Don't put me on my side, I'd rather you let me choke It's hard to enjoy the ride when you just cant let shit go What's the point of shifting standards If we can't find a common ground I'll match the pay and put in minimum effort We're at a point where I'm just bringing you down It's just motivation, don't be upset Cause no one's asking and I'll forget I'll paint a picture to be clearer Sometimes I'd wish you'd do the same I'm always somewhere in the middle But I'll find a reason to complain For once I hope you get the message I hope you hear it in my tone Instead of reading out the notes

can't help thinking to myself, "can't you take this somewhere else?" there's just no space or time and place, we're trying hard to squeeze in the breathing room you've graced. it costs more than the bottom line to take home what we've paid stop mistaking this for something you can fake so long you took to make us wait it's becoming a crime scene, punk-pristine see shit-clique dramatic royalty are saving empty seats i'm trying to see through the smoke you blow how much i owe ya for my own show i didn't know we were running up a toll come i can't even hope to count on you packing up too slow, but hey, thanks for the intro i kinda already knew these folks so you can do-it-yourself make friends you hate with somebody else or else get out no reservations first come, first serve no generator fundraiser cut, you heard? call off all proud assumptions shoot on sight party bills know everybody's talking know everybody's ill you've got your headline you've had your fill we've got citations we foot the bill

I don't know how many times I've wasted my patience On what's unimportant in hopes that we get along I'll talk all the shit I want, you won't hear it And piece by piece you tear me apart I can't keep up with where you're going It's clearly showing And soon you're gone We're always wanting more But I sure could use the time We've been through this before But it's better when it's hard to find I can't help thinking about the reasons You should be leaving I've got a lot to do Just not with you I'll make the worst excuses To why I'm so reclusive I'd rather stay inside Than deal with your shit all night It's obvious that we're not the same If things don't work out Guess we can't complain We'll pretend it's progress I never could keep track of all the names Maybe it's me I guess there's a lesson Four pounds of peas Can't beat great digestion I'd rather we keep the visitations to a minimum My lungs are shot from all the chops Inside my system But I still can't help feeling out of place Makes for an interesting story And I've tried quitting a thousand ways But I can't get past the morning Where do we go from here? Aren't you tired of waiting around for the rich to die? I miss the warmth But the people are shitty I hope that you leave cause you'll do just fine Pardon the way I articulate my words It's such a shame when people start changing And I'm not prepared for the worst Only take what you need Seems fair but I'm going nowhere T first, so you don't waste the greens Way too domed I can't comprehend all the feelings

Don't fall asleep Or at least wait till it's dark out Hard to leave But I'm just tired Mis-happenings Are worse this time around And I guess I didn't notice until now To mean it Is more than it's worth To process is progress This feeling is well undeserved It'd make sense to think less Considering how many times I've crossed this bridge You'd think I'd learn I bet that betting is useless And I'm not one to make things work But it could be worse Cause it takes Two to start a conflict And you've won it I'm pretty sure I'll manage No need to rub it in Well half the time it doesn't seem to Go the way I planned I understand If it becomes an issue But don't expect a change Cause I've got all this time to forget Why you tried and I left But I'll get over it In case I couldn't tell why you're upset Please try to make it clearer I'll miss the point or just forget Why I'm supposed to care Cause I can't pretend like it's not so bad I'll take a hard pass And leave it alone

how did i end up back here? it seems i'm awake for days on end and nothing i heard helps to mend it say you feel worn out i feel everything at once you and i are always catching up talk to me when i've caught a break can't have my weeks be waterwheels just runnin through the same in cycles all our features fade away i cannot summon what i think it takes to stay ahead come home with something new to process it ends up instead piled up atop my list of topics that i take to bed talk to me, tell me something that'll clear space in my head plead my case again i see you everyday often over everything i feel so far away step back and see i'm only acting let plans i make time out from stalling have daydreams last months and then forget to wake up i don't know what goes wrong contradict catatonic behaviour with honest-to-goodness intentions to move step by step i am following footprints i made yesterday down to the groove well, don't i know not to preach what i won't own? soon, i know, i'll reap what i've sown but nothing grows